worst day in every quarter

guess ppl wat is the worst day in every quarter?
hmm..
can u guess it?
it might b different for each of u..
for me, its the day when my grade is posted..
i admit it my grade is not the best, but it's my own fault coz i never study..
but then, whenever the grade is out, friends always ask around bout it..
why? why? why do u guys wanna kno?
mine is really bad, can u not ask?
i feel ashamed..
i wanna do as good as u guys, where 3.5 is not even enough.. where 3.8 is the lowest for u guys..
can i? ppl said i can get tat too, as long as i wanna focus, i wanna study, n.. n.. n..
where is my brain when i need it?
i think the brain is always there, it's just i never wanna use it..
where is the heart when i need it?
oh my heart, when u're still beating, can u at least focus on one important thing in my life?
right now, study is the most important thing..
i wanna focus.. can u help me please?
another 2 years to go, can i pump up my grade?
will i have enough time?
i have wasted 2.5 years with ugly grade, can i hav better grades?
i feel ashamed to talk my friends bout grade..
i feel ashamed to face my parents whenever i thot bout my grades..
i feel ashamed toward God when He already gave me this chance to study this far..
i wanna change..
i wanna focus..
will i b able to in the next 2 yrs?